Hi friends! We made it back to florida--- and if I'm being totally honest, I cried a lot on the plane-- but because of the turbulence more than anything. I've been getting A LOT better at flying-- but the intensity of the super moon out the window + the bumps + the age of the plane really just got the best of me last night. Regardless, we made it home safely. I then slept for nine hours and completely fell asleep on a pile of clean laundry by mid day too. So tired. But it was good--- really good.
We had talked to Marlowe's teacher last week-- she said Marlowe is reading at a second grade level. She reads and writes incredibly well, she just needs to work on comprehension more-- being able to explain what she just read. To be honest with you, I still struggle with that too. I'm a speed reader, but I often force myself to go back and re-read to really understand what my brain just half processed. I asked if we could take any work on our trip for Marlowe to do-- but we were offered the suggestion for marlowe to keep a daily journal instead. Honestly, I might start making Marlowe do this every night-- trip or no trip. I really like the idea. Even one sentence of her day would be nice for her to document while practicing her reading and writing.
Marlowe is a complicated little kid. She has a heart of gold-- with absolutely zero mean energy in her body. She cries when she hears bees are suffering. She wants to change the world. She's just a really good person. And she can be incredibly outgoing while sometimes being so painfully shy-- reminds me of someone I know (cough cough me). She's so in love with animals. And curious as they come.
I never really considered homeschooling that much before-- I always had this big fear that she wouldn't be socialized enough at home. Only in the past few years have I come out of my shell enough to really get up and out more myself. Wanting to push to be outside-- to be around people -- to take in everything that friends and strangers have to offer.
The thing is-- here-- at home, in florida, you can most often find Marlowe in her room. It's a struggle to get her outside. She's a super happy kid, but every morning she says she doesn't want to go to school. After school I ask her what type of adventure she wants to go on-- and other than getting smoothies-- she wants to go home. In Guatemala? The shift is huge. She spent every single waking hour outside-- she was excited and alive. I'm not sure what it is here-- but too often we feel trapped in doors. School is her time outside-- yet she's still stuck inside learning. So now, I have been questioning homeschool more. Putting it more on the front burner of my thoughts-- wondering if maybe this would be a good shift. And telling myself where I could do it in a way where I don't allow her to hermit all day at home-- forcing her to adventure, to meet new people, and explore the world around her. I know I mentioned it (no matter how hard it is here in Florida)-- but I am really considering doing it-- for at least a year to see how it goes. Worst case: she goes back to school. She's already in the gifted program, and asking to learn more, saying it's too easy-- so this would give us a huge advantage of working at our own, maybe quicker pace. I know one of the biggest obstacles is navigating through all the curriculums-- but we have time. I'm not in a rush to pull her out of school or anything like that. I told her she has to finish out the year in public school and then we can discuss it.
That myers briggs text I'm softening mentioning is spot on for the parenting section and my personality. This explanation of my parenting type always rings so incredibly true to me:
INTP personalities are not particularly demanding parents, at least not in the sense that they expect their children to live a traditional life of school/career/marriage/house/kids/retirement (and in that order, thank you very much). Rather, INTP parents are demanding in an intellectual sense – they want their children to ask if this path is the best path for them, and how to go about following a different one if they need to.I just want her to be happy-- to find herself and be herself and make the absolute most of it. We all thrive more in our own proper environments and maybe she's not wrong to ask if she can be homeschooled and shift out of the public school system here.
Most of the kids and families we know in our area are actually homeschooled. And half of the ones that are not, want to be. The school system is pretty bad here. I mean, we love Marlowe's teacher and we're super, super happy she's in the gifted program-- but I don't at all look forward to the future, especially the high school school system here in Florida. But of course, high school is a longgggg ways away and who knows where we will be then. If I'm being totally open right now, going back to visit Antigua only made me want to move there more. Marlowe too. And even Alex was like, "okay, how do we figure this out to make this happen." We're open. I'm ready. So ready. I already have Marlowe's school picked out, (a montessori school that focuses on earth sustainability and learning outside on an organic farm). I actually decided on the school months ago-- it was a pretty obvious choice. And Marlowe actually made a friend this trip that will be transferring to said school-- so she's extra excited now that she knows how easy it is to make friends there-- and how nice they are. We'll see what happens. I don't know. If it works out that Alex wants to stay here, then maybe we'll just homeschool. Take off here and there and school at home and on the road. Who knows. All I know is that I'm totally more open to homeschool now. If any of you guys have suggestions for how to pick the best curriculum, I'd love that. She's a detailed oriented kid that loves nature and art.
It's pretty obvious that my mind has been all over the place this past month (my whole life) and I have no idea whats really going to happen next. But things are good. My whole mission in life is really just to do more of what I can for this earth, be as happy as I can be, help Marlowe be as happy as she can be, and give her the best life possible--- which I really think she has an amazing life. We'll see what happens next, but for now, we're open to homeschooling and would appreciate any advice on how to navigate the process!
Thanks friends. Que sera sera, right? :)