Boy, I'm exhausted. Like, the minute I hit "publish" I'm brushing my teeth and heading into bed. The past few weeks have been tough. Obviously. I've spent all of this week reading reading reading. So much reading in fact that sometimes I forget that I should probably be working or doing other things and then I look at the clock and realize, I should be in bed. Like now, I sat down three hours ago to do a blog post, but instead I spent this entire time reading. Ayurvedic books, homeopathic books, mindfulness books, book on Chinese medicine, all the books. I'll probably do a post about them, if you guys are interested.
My stomach seems to be doing a bit better since I listened to the advice of my acupuncturist. I'm eating less in general, but also, taking in a lot less fat. Surprisingly, it hasn't made me lose weight. Which I find incredible. I had been pumping myself with 3x the amount of food + fat and not gaining anything--- now I dropped all that and I'm not losing. So I guess thats showing me something.
Right now I'm trying to be super proactive about everything-- and trying to get a lot of rest. Sometimes I feel like I can go back to my old ways of rarely sleeping, but then the ringing gets extra loud and I get super dizzy and it's like my buzzer to send me to bed. I'm taking a lot of things for my gut again. I tried to stop, but I think my gut still needs to heal a whole lot more, so I've added them back in.
I also started seeing a holistic dentist, and as much as I HATE the idea of having my mouth (and wallet) assaulted again, I'm really considering the ideas of having my two root canal-ed teeth pulled. But---- since I have all this other stuff on my plate, I'm in no rush of course-- just doing all the reading first to make a smart, thoughtful decision on it.
Speaking of the other stuff on my plate, I have my MRI scheduled. December 1st. I'm putting all the positive thoughts I can into thinking that this thing in my head has not grown. Ideally I'd like to believe it will be smaller, but I'll happily settle for "just the same." Because, like I mentioned, even though all my symptoms match, in my gut I believe that my symptoms are stemming from elsewhere and not from the lump. For now, I'm trying to focus on feeling well, vacation, and trying to get fresh air as often as I can and not focusing on the lump. The MRI will come soon and theres absolutely nothing I can do in the meantime.
On a health and being proactive topic, I really do believe my vertigo is triggered by by my horrendously terrible pms. So I'm trying to do what I can now to try to make this months deal a bit easier. Andplusalso I have a few posts coming up about womanly/monthly things. I've asked a few people who I consider quite knowledgable in this field to help me (and maybe you) and talk about tips to make this hormonal lady stuff easier. But we can save the personal lady topic for another day, maybe behind a cut ;)
Okay, so it's 11pm. Alex just came home early and made me some tea. And I'm pooped. I'm off to bed. We got a mini cold front over here, it was quite nice. Drinking lots of warm tea + massive amounts of ginger since I know my body can't handle many changes these days-- in hopes to not catch anything! I hope you guys are having a good week. <3
*excuse any extra typos. my once 2 am bedtime is 11pm - midnight.