That's a lot of "no" foods, right? It gets stricter--- wait for it---- so on top of being gluten free, soy* free, sugar free, corn free--- well, I was vegan to begin with (you guys know this). But also, I can't have any super starchy foods (think potatoes/white rice), any super gassy foods (think beans* or cauliflower), or anything cold or raw (think raw veggies/salads/yogurt). And with the exception of almond butter or almond flour, no nuts really. No molds (mushrooms). So what's left? Well, surprisingly a lot. I mean, now there's a lot. It's been a long road. I was restricted to mostly really cooked, pureed foods for a while there (baby food). That was rough. My meal was the same everyday, a pureed or super cooked veggie, pureed black beans, overcooked black rice. Any little thing I ate could and would affect my gut. Even seemingly safe things, would kill my stomach on any given day. And most days, even if my stomach was fine, I would start shaking and feel as if I was going to pass out with each meal. My body was too weak to even handle basic digestion and absolutely was not absorbing enough, so it had to be EASY. Thankfully I've come a long way since the first few weeks/month and I feel like I can mostly eat like a human and not a baby.
SO I guess the way to look at it, is after the c. diff--- I knew there was no way I wouldn't have a candida overgrowth in my gut. That was basically inevitable. If the c. diff had the room to grow, certainly other bad yeasts and bacteria would too. Years of working on a good, healthy, flora-full gut and one short (stupid) stint in antibiotics my good bacteria was wiped clean, my colon was tore up and destroyed, and I was left to do everything I can to mend this body of mine. It hasn't been easy. It's all been incredibly complicated-- and I'm still completely unsure of what else attacked my system. We've thrown away the lyme diagnosis--- and really, stopped looking for other diagnosis' because at this point it seems that the anti fungal + herbs + diet has been (way too slowly) and is getting me somewhere. My body suffered through hell this year. I was awake in bed last night and for whatever reason I started thinking about the beginning of this all-- and remembered how bizarre the start was--- the crazy intense pains in my arms that came out of nowhere. I could hardly hold my newborn niece without thinking I was going to fall over. Weeks later, the c diff came knocking on my door (stomach). I'll never have answers, okay, whatever. But what I do have: a plan. I've obviously been doing every single thing I've been capable of to feel better--- and if that means being on the most restricted (but somewhat diverse at the same time) diet, then fine. I'm into it.
At this point, it's been months since I've had a sip of alcohol, a taste of bread, and even coffee, and honestly? I'm sort of okay with it. I never thought I could or would be, but if it means that I can heal and become healthier, and be alive, then it's worth it. I'd rather be alive, happy, and well than open up the risk of bad bacteria growing. It's just not worth it now--- and probably for a long time. (Though I'll probably bring back coffee soon, because I think my gut is ready to handle that.) There was no way someone was going to convince me to eat ice cream and mashed potatoes after being released from the hospital. What good would that do me? Energy? No. Nutrition? No. Good bacteria? No. It was just going to feed the bad bacteria and leave me sicker and more than likely with a recurrence of c. diff. The recurrence rate is HIGH for c. diff, even after heavy doses of antibiotics to kill it--- and it's not wonder with the ill prep they said patients home with. I'm happy to say that I think I've finally passed the point where they 'clear me' of the risk of c. diff coming back.
But hey, guess what I managed to do? Put back on at least five pounds. Good right? But how? Well, I eat all day. I usually have two meals in the first two hours of waking up. And I eat a good two+ avocados a day. Also, coconut oil like it's my job. Sometimes I just eat a spoonful of oil just for kicks. It helps me absorb my D vitamin, fights off yeast (coconut oil is anti-fungal), and helps me gain weight. I'm into it.
So my diet has consisted of my (gut healing) oatmeal for breakfast. Or some very similar variation of it. And honestly, I often skip the fruit, I just recommended it, cause you guys can and should eat fruit. But since it's raw and has (natural) sugar, I usually skip it. Sometimes I get wild and crazy and throw the (hot) oatmeal in the blender with a touch of unsweetened almond milk and make it a smoothie. Wild, I know.
For first lunch (I have two most days) I typically have a miso soup with some veggies and buckwheat noodle.
And (second) lunch and dinner is usually some version of all the food you'll see below.
So what CAN I eat? Well,
-most veggies. nothing super gassy or starchy. Or overly sugary (beets). And all must be cooked.
-black forbidden rice, sometimes brown rice in small amounts.
-quinoa (well cooked)
-eggs, yup I did it, I added eggs back in. Didn't think I would, but my protein options are little to none. I typically eat them hardboiled and chopped into my veggies.
-almond butter /almond flour (its lower in mold than most other nuts)
-sometimes lentils or pureed black beans. I've tried other beans, but they usually don't do well in my gut.
-all spices and herbs (omg thank god)
-steel cut oats
-fermented + probiotic foods, but only the ones that were naturally fermented--- no vinegar or sugar allowed. I eat a few scoops of sauerkraut each day to help build the good bacteria.
-*soy, I've allowed myself to have fermented soy. Miso: yes. Sometimes tempeh.
I think that's it for now. But hey, I love a good cooking challenge. (seriously). So here we go, the adult version of What Marlowe Eats: What I've been Eating---
*don't expect it to be too pretty-- this is more of the survivalist meals-- get it on the plate and eat before getting loopy.
tumeric ginger coconut soup with carrot, rutabaga, buckwheat noodles, and herbs.
red miso soup, loaded with seaweed, buckwheat noodles, and carrot noodles.
roasted eggplant, avocado.
buckwheat noodles with an almond butter sesame oil sauce, with sautéed veggies.
we call these my calorie bombs. I'd eat five of these a day. I forget how many calories and grams of protein are in each one, but it's a ridiculous amount. They basically consist of almond butter, eggs, almond flour.
This is what dinners look like for me often. Family eats what they can and what they want and I have my own agenda--- sautéed veggies with a chopped hard boiled egg, pureed black beans, small scoop of black rice. Pasta for all the lucky folks.
I think I mentioned it, but I've gone out to eat three times. This is one of three--- Ethiopian dinner. Cooked veggies and lentils over injera (gluten free- teff flour bread). (the first day was here)
mish mash leftover lunch. kitchari, black rice, pureed black beans, steamed rutabaga, avocado.
quinoa veggies cakes and black beans and brown rice for M, white miso with buckwheat for me--- I had some quinoa cakes too.
Loads of veggies, quinoa, avocado.
sometimes veggie soup-- this has some beans in it-- so I would have probably done better had it been pureed. And sauerkraut and avocado.
these last two meals are probably most similar to what I've been eating everyday lately. Rice + quinoa bowls loaded, with sautéed veggies, a chopped hardboiled egg, some greens-- seasoned with tons of spices (mostly turmeric, cumin, coriander), fresh garlic and ginger, and usually topped with avocado and some sort of sauerkraut.
And there you have it--- what I've been eating lately. High fiber + high protein, veggie filled diet. Hooray food! Screw you, c. diff. + candida.
Love you guys. Have a great week!